Being happy in your skin that's what it's all about

I don't know what it is -- it could be my spanking new pair of court shoes that make me walk in a certain confident way, or that I'm being sweet talked by virtual men in Mystic Messenger (LULZ!), or that I made a new male friend, but I feel contented and happy with my life right now, at this moment.

Even though, I also feel there is a huge dark cloud or a huge boulder hanging over my head that will fall on me any time now, I still feel good about myself.

It's a strange feeling - to be happy yet at the same time you feel apprehensive.