2021 New Year's Eve

While we wait for Big Hit Labels' 2021 New Year's Eve Live to start, let me write a letter to myself...

Dear self,

WTF? I know 2020 has been a ridiculous year but it doesn't mean you have to behave this way. You were doing so well getting yourself together but from mid 2019 to now, you seemed lost. Buck up lah! Please!

For 2021, be more focused on your goals. Don't mind the social media so much. Twitter will still be there, you don't have to watch all the YouTube videos at once, you don't have to read all the fanfic in one sitting. These things? You can do it as a way to relax after your hard work. Not for you to procrastinate. Not for you to lose sleep over it.

Procrastination ain't cool. OK?

Firstly, complete that one paper that's been pending for a whole year. Don't you want to graduate? After all these years?? Come on! You just need to focus on this paper for a week to complete it and then you're done. DONE. You can graduate, and you can move on. Maybe you can find a better job, with better pay and benefits.

Secondly, focus on your health. Just abandon all those food that are unhealthy. No more cheat days. Cheat days turns into cheat week. Cheat week turns into cheat month. You need to lose weight. You have to lose 10kg before your next appointment in March. You have to take control of your blood sugar reading. 

You said you wanted to start this month... what happened? You only tried for 2 days and then you abandoned it. You make excuses. Raining lah, holiday lah, start tomorrow lah. No more, please. It isn't that hard if you're serious about it.

Thirdly, focus on your future plans. Remember all those things you wanted to do before you turn 50. You have dreams, right? Manifest them. Push to achieve them. Don't just membebel to your daughter for her to work hard on her dreams, but you don't even follow your own advise. Do as you say. Lead by example. 

Sigh.

Here's to a brighter 2021. I know it's been tough seeing those things that were promised to you didn't come to fruition this year. You have to accept that they're not your rezeki. Let it go. Allah knows what's best for you. If it is meant for you, you'll get it eventually. But no more waiting on it, ok. Just stop. 

Do your best, and trust in Allah. 

Yours truthfully,

~me

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